Thoughts

Hello blogging world! It's been a while.
Well here it goes, mini rant/ thought time with Emily.

As graduation is impending, the thoughts of choosing a college, and picking what I want to do for the rest of my life have been running ramped through my mind and it's kind of freaking me out. It's just.. I want to do so many different things. I want to experience everything that life has to offer. How am I, a 17 year old, supposed to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life?

I mean, there is so many routes I can take, and they could all lead to somewhere wonderful. I could go to college, and get a degree that probably won't be worth anything because of where I feel headed towards in life. But I also just really DO want to go to college! I want to expand my mind, and further my education. On what exactly? I don't really know.
On one hand, I want to move to New York and experience life in a big city. I could become a fashion designer, or an artist, or an actress, or...anything!
But then I also just want to live in a place like Chicago and have a dinky little book store, that's right across the street from a coffee shop. And people could ride their bikes along the sidewalk and just stop into my tiny little store..
BUT then I also want to live in a city that is slightly smaller, and just own a flower shop or something that makes me happy.
AND I want to go on mission trips, and help children and families and just be a blessing.
OR I could become an interior designer, or work in a art museum... oh.. that would actually be wonderful.. I'll have to consider that option..
I would really be happy with any of these things. I just want to explore the world. I want to visit places that I have never been. I want to live in a crappy little apartment in the middle of a city with my fat cat, where I could hop on my bike and pedal over to a tea store that's a few blocks away whenever I feel like. I want to get in the car and just drive and see where the random roads take me; and then discover restaurants and shops along the way that can only be found when you are going on an adventure. I want to be without a plan and be happy.

I'm just at a stage in my life where I'm ready to go, and do. I just want to move far away and see where life takes me from there.. Gosh. Life is too short to be stuck in a place that you aren't happy with, forever!

Okay... life thoughts with Emily is over for today. See you guys sometime soon-ish.
With love,
That Teenage Blogger